How did I get here?

How'd I get here? I'm a father of two beautiful children, my wife is the most amazing woman I know.  So why? Why do I feel like nothing matters anymore?  How could I have let this happen.  I was so careful.  I knew the warning signs, yet I ignored every single one of them.  Now how  can I be honest with my staff?  I'll have to step down. I'll just walk with my head down.

Shame....Guilt.... 2 of Satan's biggest weapons to get us to give up.

Repentance absolutely love Psalms 51. David wrote this after Nathan came to him about his adultery with Bathsheba

10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,

    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

11 Do not cast me from your presence

    or take your Holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation

    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,

    so that sinners will turn back to you.

14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,

    you who are God my Savior,

    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

15 Open my lips, Lord,

    and my mouth will declare your praise.

16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;

    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

17 My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;

    a broken and contrite heart

    you, God, will not despise.  

Don't let Satan use shame and guilt to keep you from seeking the forgiveness that God will extend to a repentant heart and life.